I've been in "the Scene" for over 12 years. I was exclusively Dominant for the first six years and played with multiple people (men and women) rather than having a submissive of my own. I thought I would always be Dominant and was satisfied with my life.©copyright crave 2001Life and needs grow and change and I met a Dominant and became an exclusive 24/7 submissive for the next six years. This was a period of intense growth and I relished the experiences of being completely owned by another. I thought I would always be submissive and was satisfied with my life.
We are all constantly evolving and changing and therefor our needs and wants constantly evolve and change. I am now the very proud Dominant of a delightful, willing, submissive who also has a wicked Top side. I've found a balance in my life, the balance between the desires of Dominance and the desires of submission. My submissive is as completely mine as I am completely hers. She submits to me out of desire and passion. She is my cherished and treasured possession. I am her Dominant, her lover and always her protector.
I have reconnected with The Beast that had been quietly lurking for the previous six years. The Panther who had been biding her time, waiting for the right moment to strike and the right person to receive the pleasure of my gift of pain. She has been pacing in her cage, licking her paws, remembering the taste of blood. The bites of the lash she felt, has increased her strength, increased her desire, increased her power. She knows what it feels like to be used for another's pleasure. Now she can give the gift of powerlessness and freedom to the one who is willing to reach for that gift.
I am a Dominant Sadist. I want my submissives, both those I own for a lifetime and those who give themselves to me for an evening, to give of their body, their mind, their spirit, willingly and gratefully. I want them to trust me with every fiber of their being. I want to inflict heavy physical sensations, and heavy mental sensations. I want them to feel my power, my presence in a quick glance, a quietly stated word, or a blow that knocks them down to their knees. I have a blood lust. I want to puncture skin with my teeth, my claws, or my needles. I want to create an entrance into the body and lap at liquid life.
I demand obedience and respect, but also admire strength and honor fiesty resistance. I never want a submissive to loose a sense of self. I want to encourage, build and increase the growth and development of another.
My submissive gives me intense pleasure. My Dominance gives me intense pleasure. At this point, I can only imagine this evolving into something with deeper, lasting, stating joy.